My name is Franzen Ray Mwalo, born and raised in Nairobi Kenya. I am the second out of three. I grew up knowing the LDS church since my dad introduced us to the church while I was still young. After my mom got divorced, I spent most of my young teenage years not going to any church. I still believed in GOD and I always wanted to be worthy of his blessings since my mom used to read us a lot of bible stories while growing up.
Years later when I was 15, my mom reconnected with the LDS church again. I was a bit reluctant to go back to church, but my mom ended up convincing me. I loved the church, especially when it came to the youth activities the church would host. I wasn’t that much of a worthy priesthood holder when it came to the church leaders. My interest in girls got me in a lot of trouble, but still for some reason my bishop at that time saw some potential in me. I was always repenting everyday because I was made to believe that I wasn’t a worthy person before God. The amount of guilt I would feel after “sinning” was so unbearable. I strived my hardest to be worthy of God. My mom and bishop advised me to go on a mission. Each time I would say no, they would say things to me that made me feel even more unworthy of God’s blessings.
My family at that time was facing a major financial crisis. A lot of the time there wasn’t any food at home and my brother and I would get sent out of school because we couldn’t afford it. The only option I was left with after I was done with high school was to go on a mission, because I knew it would give my mom an easy time by me laying off some load. I was still reluctant to go on mission, so I asked God for guidance. Immediately, I came across a verse in the book of Proverbs 3:5-6, which said that I should trust God fully and not lean to my own understanding. To me that was the answer I was seeking from God and so I went on a mission even though I never wanted to go. I left in September 2020. I was 21 at that time.
As I was on my mission, I now began to understand the LDS church more. To me a lot of things didn’t really seem right. I got called on a mission in my own country. I later received my temple endowment. The only thing that stood out for me was the play, even though I never understood anything about it. I kept on thinking about it a lot. My fellow missionaries would tell me how much they felt the spirit and god’s presence, but on the other hand I felt absolutely nothing like the spirit. I would tell them how I felt, but they’d end up making fun that I am simply unworthy and apostate haha. I’d end up just laughing about it, but deep down I questioned why I never felt the spirit as they did. Later on, as we would teach people, I always thought about the thousands of people who have never received an endowment. I was made to believe that no one was ever going to the celestial kingdom without having an endowment and by not being baptized in the church. Deep down this never sat correctly with me. I thought to myself that god cannot be this unfair. It was like saying that the celestial kingdom was only meant for the Mormons. Each time I’d teach about the temple to people, I really cringed within me, because it just didn’t add up to me and I never understood why no one around me questioned that.
I really wanted to know the fate of all the other people who were not the members of the church. I asked questions, but I was told to have faith and that we can’t have all the answers in this life. I really hated that answer. My mind wouldn’t rest until I found something that made sense to it. Time went by when one point while hanging out with one of my companions, someone mentioned the sealed portion and condemned it. He said that the prophet said that we shouldn’t read it. My companion told me a bit about it and mentioned the name Marihala, who was supposed to be the spirit mom of Jesus, and just like that I knew I would get my answers there. I began to find it.
After finding it and reading it all through, IT MADE PERFECT SENSE, and so I wanted to be involved with the Worldwide United Foundation and see how I could help even more with taking care of the poor and afflicted. Then the real truth caught my eye. When I listened to Christopher’s presentations, it just made sense man. I don’t know how or why, but it did. I didn’t really need to read all the books of the Real Illuminati. I just knew whatever they wrote in those books was true. From there, every lesson I’d attend with anyone on my mission, the only principle I taught was loving one another. My companion called me apostate for that and said I never seemed to tell anyone the importance of the LDS church.
Long story short, I never finished my mission. I got sent back home super happy that I finally found the truth. It truly has helped me understand myself better. Embracing the Real Truth really brings me joy. Yes, I have tried sharing it; but I have been mocked, especially with my brother and some other friends of mine who are members of the church. I can say that I really needed the Real Truth in my life. I used to live in so much confusion; but the truth really does set you free. On my mission, I came across so many anti-Mormon materials, but absolutely NONE of them made any sense. I came across the Real Truth and everything about the universe, religion, and humanity began to make so much sense. I now know that I don’t have to be anything for the world, my family, my friends, my country, for the god religion introduced me to, or any other thing or person in this world. Because of the Real Truth, I know who I am and that I am entirely responsible for how I pursue my happiness. I am so humbled by the Real Truth, and I am so excited because I know there’s still more to learn. Again the truth does set free.
FRANZEN RAY MWALO
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