Charis McRae

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My name is Charis Crandell (McRae) and this is my story.

My purpose in writing this isn’t to try to convince anyone of anything. But if you’re here reading our stories, I hope it’s with an open heart; because it’s from the same that we all wrote our stories … with all our heart!

I can honestly say finding this work has been a blessing and a curse all at the same time. But now I can’t imagine my life not knowing the truth & the calming peace that comes with it! When they say ‘The truth shall set you free,’ they weren’t kidding! One short video of a cute little old lady (who was named Ida Smith) talking about the Sealed Portion sparked something deep inside of me. I started reading all the books & now I can’t imagine my life without knowing this amazing truth. The peace this work brings to my heart & soul is like nothing I’ve EVER known or felt!

A bit of my history…I lived and breathed the LDS religion. Even when I strayed a little, my faith never wavered. There was nothing on this earth that could make me believe that the church wasn’t the only true church. At the age of 3 & 4, my grandparents took custody of my sister & me. They raised us firmly in the church. I was sealed to my Mom & Step-Dad at age 18. My Patriarchal Blessing told me I would serve a mission for my church. After college, I served an honorable mission.

I saved myself for my husband, whom I met at age 25. A week before our temple wedding, we ‘messed up’ & had to wait a year before we could get married in the temple again. After having 3 sweet children and a few years into marriage, we started to stray a bit. My husband, being a DPS officer, started holding parties at our house with his fellow officers. This soon led to experimenting sexually together with other couples. I started to feel uncomfortable and wanted to start getting back on track with the church. My husband was having too much fun to stop.

After a year of taking my kids to church on my own, I decided it was time to confess to the Bishop. After a few meetings, I was invited to stand before the bishopric in a court setting to be judged. They excommunicated me, and the deciding factor was because I was a return missionary & knew better. They tried to get my husband in so they could do the same to him. But he said there was no way he was gonna let them excommunicate him.

We ended up moving, which meant we had to update the new bishopric & stake presidency regarding my standing with the church. After a few meetings with the stake presidency, they met with me and said, “I’m sorry that you were excommunicated. That never should have happened to you. We don’t believe your husband stands on any grounds of excommunication either. And we hope it’s okay with you that we don’t excommunicate him.” I was completely fine with it, because I didn’t want him to have to go through what I went through. I went through all the steps to be re-baptized and was a full member of the church again.

I found out real quick that once this happens to you, it’s not erased and forgotten like ‘They’ say! Everyone treated me differently & kept their distance from associating with me. Every time we moved, I had to sit in front of the Bishop and explain all over again why I was excommunicated. It was horrible. But I loved the church and believed that the church was perfect, but the people were not. My marriage had struggled ever since this happened.

My husband ended up getting fired from DPS, got hooked on pills, struggled with depression and drinking. For the sake of my kids, I felt it was best to take them and move back home and get a divorce. It was during this time that I submerged myself in studying the gospel, because it brought me so much peace & comfort.

It was in 2013, almost a year after my divorce, that I came across this work. I was so excited about it and tried to share it with my family. But they all looked at me like I was bringing something evil into their home. Which I understood, because these books weren’t from the presidency or authorized by them. I wanted to explain to my sister that these books actually help the church make more sense. I took ‘Sacred Not Secret’ to her because I was so excited that everything about the temple finally made sense.

Before this book, I had made an appointment with the temple president, because I couldn’t understand why the women had to put a veil over their face during the ceremony. It kind of bothered me, because I was starting to think that it meant that as women we are to be seen, but stay silent. I thought this, because no one could explain to me otherwise. During my appointment, the temple president just said, “I don’t know. But if you keep praying about it, the Lord will reveal the answer to you when you are ready.” I was so excited to find the answer in this book (Sacred, not Secret) and that it made sense!

But I quickly learned that my family was not as accepting of this work as I was hoping. They soon started to worry that I was being brainwashed & had apostatized. To this day, they put my name on the prayer list in the temple. They don’t have anything to do with me—almost like they are kinda scared of me. But they are super nice to me when we’re face to face. We just don’t talk about anything religious anymore. It does make me sad; but I’m at peace with it.

I could NEVER deny this work or how it has altered my life for the better. I’m free from the burden of religion (the philosophies of men mingled with scripture) & finally focusing on my own healing & growth now that I found the proper tools to work with.

How lucky we are to FINALLY have the truth at our fingertips. But at the same time, it breaks my heart that these poor souls, our brothers & sisters, who all deserve a chance at a decent life, are left suffering. But they don’t have to suffer, because all the answers to poverty are explained at We have our last True Messenger sent specifically for all of us here on earth at this time & he has explained how to simply end all the suffering & bring equality! Exactly what all of us desire! My hope is in this life we can all unite & fill each heart with the purest love by letting go of the traditions of our fathers & becoming one human race with one government “under one world order of law and peace.”

—Much Love,

Charis <3


“Ignorance is an enemy, even to its owner. Knowledge is a friend, even to its hater. Ignorance hates knowledge because it is too pure. Knowledge fears ignorance because it is too sure.”

-Sri Chinmoy


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